Chemo

We had dad's first round of Chemo yesterday. It took right at 4 hours (start to finish), and I am so glad I went with him. I heard stories of his past-my past-that I had never heard. I also lost in 3 games of Gin (was winning my first game when the chemo ended-how convienent!). I can not even explain how important it is to spend time with all the people you love! That's why I can't wait to go to Disney World with Jope and the kids (along with my brother and sister), because that's gonna be memories not only for me, but for them to look back on later in life & appreciate the time they spent with us! I guess if there is only one thing I could say I've learned about dad going thru this is that you can't get back yesterday, but you can absolutely make today happy!

Cozumel

Jope has a good job! A hard job, but a good job. They finished a project that they have been working on for an excess of 3 years, and to reward the team working on it, Blue Cross gave them a cruise to Cozumel. We left Thursday, and came back yesterday. We took Emma, Nick and Jacob with us. It was fun! It's definately something I would like to go on again, this time with all the kids! Thank you Robyn and Michelle for keeping Michael and Cam! I love you!

New do

Thanks to Robyn, I am now beautiful again (well, as beautiful as I can get). Since my girl that reguraly does my hair tore her rotator cuff (OUCH!), I've been sporting about 3 inches of grown out highlites sprinkled with alot of gray! So I decided (with the help of Robyn) to go back to my original color. It's not too bad, guess God did know what He was doing when he created me a brunette! Thanks Robyn!!!!!!!!!!

Back to swooning

For those of you who missed the "swooning" over Jope, I'll throw you a bone! This is what I woke to this morning.................Isn't he the best! I LOVE YOU JOPES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Change

Dino spoke on letting your sorrow be your seed Sunday. I think that was an awesome message. I have always said that the abuse I suffered as a child, the abandonment I experienced made me who I am, and I would not be the person I am if I had not gone through it. I had a mother who left me when I was 3, and then a step mother who physically abused me until she and my dad divorced when I was 8. I don't wish the life I led on anyone, but in return, if I had a chance, or choice to live my life over again, and change something, I wouldn't. Not even the here and now. I think the life we live makes us the children, parents, friends, neighbors, nursery workers, etc.........that we are today. Would you change who you are? If the answer is yes, don't wish to go back, but instead, look forward. You can change it now! Get on your face & get in the word. That's all it takes!
Love ya!

Life

Funny word. You have the power to speak it, you have the want to live it to the fullest, and you have the sorrow to see it go. My life revolves around family. Personal family (Jope-who has been my rock & my kids-who keep me distracted), extended family (the best group of friends I could have ever wanted) & daycare family (basically the people who keep me running all day-yet another welcomed distraction). But at the end of my thoughts throughout the day, my mind goes back to one place..........My daddy has cancer. Well, I now welcome even that thought. In this breakthrough, I have to release my daddy, and HIS problem to God, and realize that it is not my problem. I might help be part of the solution, but it's not my problem. It's not my life hanging in the balance. I'm just grateful for the word God gave me. I thought He was speaking it to my heart to tell a friend, and I'm sure He was, but it spoke volumes to me also. While we were praying tonight, He showed me a booksack on my friends back. In that booksack was burdons, HUGE books, full of problems. Some her problems, some she borrowed from others. He wanted me to tell her that at that meeting, to take off the booksack. That's what I feel like I'm doing. I'm taking off my booksack, my borrowed trouble, and putting it in a pile on the floor. I give it to Him, and get back my life.